Blog Post 16: Hamlet Blog 4

Today, I read someone's diary entry about my recent mental state.  He believes that I have gone mad because of my father's and my brother's advice to avoid Hamlet.  Their mistrust in Hamlet was "something new to" me, and I was not ready or capable of mistrusting as my family can (Seng 220).  It hurt me mentally to ignore "many tenders of his affection" because it first caused my dear Hamlet to go mad (I.iii.99-100). 

When I realized that my dear Hamlet had gone mad, I started to go insane due to his insanity.  It's hard to believe that insanity is a chain reaction, but after reading this diary entry, it made me realize what truly occurred.  Once my Hamlet asked if I was "honest" and "fair," I realized his insanity (III.i.103,105).  Who in their right mind would think that I was not honest or fair?  I have done nothing to make him believe I have not been faithful to him in all ways.  But once my Hamlet took is love away, "Denmark [had] become a prison" (Seng 218).

But I do not blame Hamlet for this tragedy of my insanity.  It is truly my father's and brother's faults.  Even my father admitted that Hamlet had "the very ecstasy of love," which I denied him (II.i.100).  I am glad that my father admitted that he had some play in Hamlet's insanity, and my insanity as a consequence, but my brother "fails to comprehend his own measure of responsibility" (Seng 223).  He even denies his responsibility after I he sees my madness by stating, "This nothing's more than matter" (IV.v.169).

In the diary, they say Laertes is ignorant of my madness and his responsibility because of the death of our father.  My father's death was also part of my madness. Within the same day, Hamlet denied my love and faithfulness and killed my father.  My father was "'dead and gone,'" which completely destroyed all of my well being (IV.v.29).

Reading this entry about my madness made me realize how insane I had become and the reasons for my insanity.  I could not believe that all of this could happen to me, and my innocent and naive mind just could not stay same through all of these happenings.